Wednesday, February 29, 2012


I feel slapped in the face!

An old friend had told me how he and his wife didn't want more kids because they were excited to get their lives back after their son grew up and was out of the house.  Their son is around age 11.  Today he posted that they're having a girl, and his wife posted that she wasn't too thrilled with having a girl and all the headache that she'll be.

That coupled with the other announcement in the past week and how much it reminded me of my loss...

The one last week doesn't make me angry, in fact, it makes me very happy... just sad for myself.
The one today makes me angry.  Why do people who don't want babies get pregnant while those of us who do lose theirs?  Angry.  Sad.  Hurt.

Alright, it's been 10 minutes and I'm already repentant.  Just like most people, I'm sure they'll still love their little girl, even if she wasn't initially desired.  Of course it'll be hard, but surely there will be love.  Just sad for me, still.  Always.  


Kim said...

Thank you for your comments on my blog:) I'm so sorry for your loss:( I know you're comparing your 13 weeks to my loss, but it is so heart wrenching at any point in pregnancy. I also had a miscarriage and I have not forgotten the pain and devastation I felt at that time and this month marks 3 years since it happened and I still think about "what would have been" often and especially when this time rolls around. And as far as this blog post, don't even get me started on the ungrateful people in this world. You realize it more when you have had something so sacred torn from your life. Thinking of you and hoping the days to come are more bearable<3

Kim said...

Thinking of your friend as well. I am so sad for her that she does not have any good memories of being with her baby. These tragedies just should not exist:(