I think I covered this last year in this post: What (not) to say
However, to kinda answer things a little differently this year, I'd say here is a myth that bother me...
#1 - Time heals all. This too shall pass. You're still grieving, it's been so long.
As I've said before, people continue to grieve their lost sibling or parent or grandparent or friend years after they've passed. Why would you expect any less when someone has lost a child? As soon as you're pregnant, you start making plans - holiday plans (Seth was due Dec 28 so I began planning Christmas at home rather than with family), home plans (if Seth were born alive, we would have needed to consider building in the basement because we just wouldn't be able to fit 3 boys in one bedroom), budgeting (even with insurance, delivering a baby costs money, as do clothes and diapers, etc), and so much more! When you lose that baby before he or she is even born, all those plans and dreams change. You've lost a child AND the future you had envisioned. And it hurts. Every holiday, you think about how you could have or should have had another baby crawling around, starting school, or whatever is relevant. Time helps, but it doesn't completely heal and the death of a child never passes. Ever.
Sometimes I think I must SEEM like I'm "over it" because I don't cry so much. Other times I think I must SEEM like I'll never be "over it" because I still do all my angel work and am constantly reaching out to people, trying so hard to help... which makes me think people must think I SEEM like I'm "over it" since I'm to a place where I can do that kind of stuff.
I just want to say that I think of both Taylor and Seth daily. I think of them as often as I think of my three living children. They're always in the back of my mind. Other people thinking or speaking of them makes me happy. I don't like thinking that they've been forgotten. They'll always be mine and I'll always remember them. Always.
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